Saturday, April 13, 2013


Well well well!! I don't know where to begin or how to explain exactly how I feel so I will just do as best as I can.. Before pregnancy I had a curvy body, not too small not too big.. I always had body issues, but I was ok with it. I loved my bootie and thunder thighs (until I couldn't fit into my favorite jeans) but I would move on to the next! I was a size 6, 8 and sometimes a 10. My body just always went up and down! I would love to exercise, get carried away and start again! But I loved it! AND then came the baby weight! haha I gained so much weight with pregnancy, which I knew would happen but trying to get it off is hard! For the last couple weeks, I was kinda sad, my clothes didn't fit and I didn't want to buy anything because I felt like I was allowing myself to stay that way! Well enough is enough!! Something popped in my head last week, and let me tell you, my perspective on body image changed completely! I did a juice detox for two days, and decided to just start eating healthy( increased my milk supply)!.. I didn't care about my body anymore, I just wanted to feel healthy! I have lost 3lbs this week--and the week isn't even over yet! Even though I am happy I started to loose weight eating healthy, it's not the most important thing to me anymore. It's more about how I feel inside, and the happiness I feel after eating a good meal! The best part of it, is my little Gracie! She was totally worth me gaining weight! It's just part of my journey and I decided I will go to the thrift store to buy me some cute clothes, and each time my body changes since I've been loosing weight; I will go and buy more clothes from thrift store. I love fashion and I can't allow my insecurities to creep up on me and put me down, I have to find ways to stay positive and find clothing pieces that make me feel sexy.. NO MORE "fat monica"..but "beautiful monica". In the end I don't care about the weight, if I eat healthy I will have a healthy body, and that's good enough for me :)Thanks for listening! or reading I suppose.haha Until then friends!

p.s I want to buy this cape from asos!