Yes I said it. I always want to be the one who wears what I want, and not care what others think. But for some reason, I get dressed, put baby in the car seat, walking with confidence towards the front. And suddenly I have a billion thoughts running through my head, I start walking slower and slower until I stop, I wait a couple seconds and think. Do I look crazy? is my euphoric style, too euphoric? People are going to stare and I won't know what to do. And even though I know, I know deep down that I love what I am wearing, that what I am wearing represents me, I can't stand my insecurities, I go back in my room with my baby Gracie and change. I put on my regular pants, and a "safe" stylish t-shirt that won't show the weight I've gained through pregnancy because I know that even though I don't feel like myself I still look stylish- so its o.k. And then I walk out my door, feeling disgusted with what I have just done. But I convince myself, that even though I don't feel like myself, I still look cute, so I let it go. But I can't do that anymore. I have to just let myself be, let everything just be. I have to just wear what I want, because I want to. I decided to start in small steps. Wear one thing I love, in public even if others stare. I've decided to just be brave and do it!! Not care if I look fat or not.. Reality is, I am overweight right now, but I am working on that, and just because I can't lose 50 pounds in one day doesn't mean I can't wear something that represents who I am!!! I am losing weight, the healthy way and I will get to my goal, but I can't be afraid to be who I am through my clothes just because I am not my normal weight. It takes time to be brave but I really believe that once I can break that cycle in my head, it will be alright, it will actually be more than alright! I will posting pictures of myself this week with outfits that represent me, outfits that make me feel euphoric again! Do any of you ladies have insecurities with fashion? Any advice for me?
These are my inspirations for the week: Love the 60's and 70's. I love the euphoric colors, the hippie, boho look! Just love!! I'll see what I can come up with :)